A Travellerspoint blog

May 2011

Moody Me

all seasons in one day

Habang lumalaki ang tyan ko, lalo akong nagiging moody. Ewan ko ba, hindi ko mapigilan. Minsang masaya ako, tapos biglang mabbwist. Biglang nasasabi ko ang mga bagay na dapat sarilinin ko na lang.

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Nung Monday, iba talaga ang timpla ko. Sa bus pa lang, mainit na ulo ko. Basta hindi ko ma-explain. Hindi ko mapigilan.

Anyway, sa likuran ako ng driver nakaupo. Tatluhan yun. Dalawa pa lang kami na nakaupo. May sumakay na babae. Tumabi sa amin. Malaki ang bag nya. Pinipilit nya na umurong pa kami. Wala nang uurungan. Siguro kung posible na lumusot kami sa bintana kakasiksik nya, lumusot na kami.

Naiinis na ako. Pinipigilan ko.

Sinisiksik nya ang bag nya para umurong kami. Di ko na kinaya. Nag react na ako.

"Ano ba miss? Siksik ka ng siksik ng bag mo, kita mo nang ang laki ng tyan ko!"

Tumayo ang ale. Lumipat ng upuan. Wala nang nagtangka na tumabi sa akin. Kahit pa mga bagong sakay. Na-sense ata nila na may topak ako.

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Sa opisina naman, nainis ako ni Bearwin. Halos isang oras na lang uwian na. Malas naman at inabutan ako ni Bearwin na hindi nag GMRC sa eskwelahan.

Dumaan sya sa likod ko sabay announce ng may kalakasang boses: "CSA, you are absent again. During the weekend pa ha."

Nagpanting ang tenga ko. Tama ba na iannounce sa lahat? Sumagot ako. Malakas din ang boses.

"Hindi ko naman dinedeny na absent ako. Pasensya ka na ha. Buntis kasi ako. Sumasama ang pakiramdam."

Sumagot pa rin ang Bearwin. "But you were absent."

Nakasimangot ako. Hindi ko sya tinitignan. Alam ko na pag tumingin ako sa mukha nya, baka tumayo ako at makipagsigawan.

Lumapit si Bearwin. "Galit ka?", tanong nya.

"Hindi. Pagod ako. Buntis nga kasi ako. Panay ang sipa ng anak ko."

"Galit ka ata eh", pangungulit nya.

"Hindi nga", sagot ko.

"Smile ka na. Sige ka, maaapektuhan ang FCR mo", sabi ni Bearwin bago lumakad palayo.

Bwisit pa rin ako. Haist. Ayoko na talaga sya makita. Kung puede lang na mag maternity leave na ako. Ginawa ko na. Pramis.

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Hirap pa rin ako matulog. Super energetic si Tyler. Sipa dito, sipa doon. Excited ako sa katapusan para sa ultrasound. Gustong gusto ko na sya makita. Actually, gusto ko na syang lumabas. Kargahin. Yung maamoy sya. Pero ayoko mag labor. Gusto ko lang matulog, at pag gising... voila!!! Ayun na si baby! Ang scenario na yan ang lagi ko ngayong pinagdadasal. Ayokong maulit ang halos pamamaos ko dahil sa kasisigaw nung ipinanganak si Chocoboy.

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Ang problema ba pag hindi pinag usapan, resolved na? Punong-puno na ako. Naiinggit nga ako sayo, sa totoo lang. Ang himbing mong matulog. Wala kang problema. Normal ba na mainit ang ulo, matutulog, at pag gising kinabukasan, wala na yung problema? Na okay na?

Hindi okay. Ako, hindi ako natutuwa. Naninikip na dibdib ko. Masamang masama loob ko. Isa rin yan sa dahilan kung bakit hirap ako matulog. I am trying so hard not to feel bad, dahil alam ko mararamdaman din ito ni Tyler. Pero nahihirapan ako. I keep thinking "I must have done something really bad in the past to be this miserable".

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Tyler is now 21 weeks old

Kicking all the time. Having difficulties sleeping.

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How your baby's growing:

Your baby now weighs about three-quarters of a pound and is approximately 10 1/2 inches long — the length of a carrot. You may soon feel like she's practicing martial arts as her initial fluttering movements turn into full-fledged kicks and nudges. You may also discover a pattern to her activity as you get to know her better. In other developments, your baby's eyebrows and lids are present now, and if you're having a girl, her vagina has begun to form as well.

How your life's changing:

You're probably feeling pretty comfortable these days. You're not too big yet, and the usual discomforts associated with early pregnancy are, for the most part, gone. If you're feeling good, relax and enjoy it while you can — the third trimester may bring with it a new crop of complaints.

That's not to say you won't have some minor glitches to deal with now. For example, increased oil production may contribute to the development (or worsening) of acne. If that's the case, be diligent about washing well with a gentle soap or cleanser twice a day, and make sure that any moisturizer or make-up you use is oil-free. Don't take any oral acne medications — some are very hazardous during pregnancy — or use any topical acne products without first checking with your practitioner.

You're also more prone to varicose veins now. As your pregnancy progresses, there's increasing pressure on the veins in your legs; higher progesterone levels, which may cause the walls of your veins to relax, can make the problem worse. You're more likely to get varicose veins if other family members have them. Also, they tend to get worse with each successive pregnancy and as you age. To help prevent or minimize varicose veins, exercise daily, prop up your feet and legs whenever possible, sleep on your left side, and wear maternity support hose.

You may also notice so-called spider veins (a group of tiny blood vessels near the surface of your skin), particularly on your ankles, legs, or face. They may have a spider- or sunburst-like pattern with little branches radiating out from the center, they may look like the branches of a tree, or they may be a group of separate thin lines with no particular pattern. Though they may be a bit unsightly, spider veins don't cause discomfort and usually disappear after delivery.

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Fetal development - 20 weeks!

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WHAT'S HAPPENING WITH YOU

Congratulations -- you are halfway through your pregnancy! You're probably feeling wonderful now that you've regained your energy. Finally people are beginning to notice that you are indeed pregnant, as your uterus pushes your abdomen out at the belly button. The uterus now reaches the level of the umbilicus (plus or minus a fingersbreadth). Your care provider has probably been measuring the level of your fundus, or top of the uterus, with a tape measure. It should now be approximately 18 to 22 cm. if you are having one baby and your dates are accurate. Your abdomen may start to itch a bit as stretching occurs. Let your care provider know about this even if though it's probably perfectly normal. (Better to be safe ...)

It is now possible to hear your baby's heartbeat with a special stethoscope, called a Delee stethoscope. Some providers begin to use this type of listening device instead of a doppler. It may now be possible for your partner to hear your baby's heartbeat by placing his or her ear against your bare lower abdomen. If you can't hear it right away, try the other side. Listen every day and you will be rewarded with a tiny, fast, rhythmic beat.

You may be having some trouble taking deep breaths on occasion, particularly if you are short in stature, or overweight. Call your care provider if you exhibit signs of asthma, such as coughing, wheezing when you exhale, or difficulty breathing at any time, especially during, or following, a cold or respiratory tract infection. One in every 100 women suffers from asthma during pregnancy. A recent study published in the British Medical Journal found that women with a history of asthma, who are pregnant with girls, were more likely to experience an increase in symptoms, possibly due to hormonal differences. Asthma can be easily treated, and medications safe for use during pregnancy are a vailable. If you have asthma, it is very important to get a prompt diagnosis so you can avoid distress and complications.

WHAT'S HAPPENING WITH YOUR BABY

Your baby measures about 16.5cm from crown to rump and is steadily gaining weight. A whitish coat of a slick, fatty substance called vernix caseosa begins to cover your baby, protecting her skin during its long immersion in amniotic fluid. It also eases birth. Your baby's swallowing more this week, good practice for her digestive system. After your baby takes in amniotic fluid, her body absorbs the water in the liquid and moves the rest into her large bowel. In her bowel, a sticky by-product of her digestive system, called meconium, accumulates. It'll appear in her first nappy after she's born.

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Mother's Day

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Motherhood is tough 24 hour job,no pay,no day off, sometimes it is unappreciated, but yet resignation is impossible. A mother is a woman who created by God to bring love, joy, happiness and caring into his world. I am so glad God has created a woman to be a mother, even though motherhood is a full time job, a mother's work is never done.

Maybe it's because I am currently pregnant that is why I am more melancholy about the day. Yes, today is Mother's Day. One of the most important days of the year. After all, everyone has a mom, right?

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I for one, do not have an ideal relationship with my mom. We constantly argue and bicker about inconsequential and trivial matters. Yet, I must admit that I was probably given her because she is the one that suits me best. We are both stubborn.

We always hear that nobody is perfect. Even if mothers are the equivalent of God in their kids' eyes, they do make mistakes. What we should remember is to take the good, and make sure we do better with our own kids.

To all the mothers, Happy Mother's Day!

By the way, thank you to the following people who greeted me:

Alvin and Ron
Au
Helen
Des
Anne
Chai
Chiz
Ge
Yanyan
Jayson
Ree
Leda
Leslie
Mael
Mae
Marlou
Minoy
Poi
TSA

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Fairy tales do come true

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Last April 29, pinanood namin ni TSA ang kasal ni Prince William kay Kate Middleton.

Natuwa ako sa event na ito. Fairy tale talaga sya. Isang "commoner" na pinakasalan ng prince. Ang galing.

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The Duke and Duchess of Cambridge

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I really like Kate's wedding gown. Classic.

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With the Royal family.

To the Royal couple, my best wishes. And may you live happily ever after.

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Galit talaga sa akin si Char...

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Nagulat ako pagdating ko sa bahay na naglalaba si TSA.

"Ano nakain mo?", tanong ko.

Eto ang sagot nya: "Galit talaga sayo si Char."

"Bakit naman?"

Kwento ni TSA, inaya nya daw kahapon sa 2nd floor si Charcoal para picturan. Nagbilin kasi ako na kuhanan ng litrato para mailagay ko dito sa blog ang before after picture after her disastrous haircut done by yours truly.

Pinapa-pose nya ang tuta na normally ay laging camera ready. Ayaw. Iniwan ni TSA sandali. Nagulat sya pagbalik nya. Kinuha ni Char ang 2 jacket ko from Chocoboy's room. Winawasiwas nya. Panay ang angil. Pinipigilan ni TSA. Ayaw daw tumigil. Umiiyak pa.

"Galit ka talaga kay Mommy noh?", tanong ni TSA kay Char.

Tuloy pa rin sa pag-ngatngat sa mga jacket ko. Kinakaladkad pa daw sa sahig. Hinayaan na lang ni TSA. Nung nailabas na ni Charcoal lahat ng galit nya, sinalang na ni TSA sa washing machine ang mga kawawang jacket.

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Fetal development - 19 weeks pregnant

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You're halfway there! The top of your uterus now reaches your belly button and will grow about a centimeter per week. The fetus measures around 6 inches/ 15 centimeters long from crown to rump and weighs about 9 ounces/ 240 grams.

She has started to swallow amniotic fluid, and her kidneys continue to make urine. Hair on the scalp is sprouting.

Sensory development reaches its peak this week. The nerve cells serving each of the senses - taste, smell, hearing, seeing, and touch - are now developing in their specialized areas of the brain. Nerve cell production slows down as existing nerve cells grow larger and make more complex connections. If you're carrying a baby girl, she already has roughly six million eggs in her ovaries. By the time she's born, she'll have about one million.

You may have felt the kicking and somersaulting of your growing baby. At times, you might find that she is so mobile that you can't sleep. The next ten weeks or so will be your baby's busiest and most active time, until the womb gets too crowded.

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I am so sorry Charcoal...

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Mahilig akong manood ng Animal Planet. Kahapon, nalaman ko na pag buhol buhol ang balahibo ng aso, kailangan i-trim agad kasi naiirritate ang skin nila. Puede din sila magkasugat dahil dito.

Pagkatapos kong manood ng tv, naisip ko na gupitan si Char. Kasi napansin ko na nagbubuhol yung fur nya sa bandang likuran. Pero, para pantay, naisip ko gupitin na lahat ng fur nya.

"Charchar, magmumukha kang sheep mamaya. Gagandahan ni Mommy ang haircut mo," sabi ko kay Charcoal.

Syempre, wala namang nagawa ang aso ko. Higa lang sya at payag na gupitan ko.

Pagkatapos kong magupitan si Char ng super ikli, sa banyo na kami dumiretso. Binasa at sinabon ko na sya. Simula na ng pag-ahit para maging pantay ang gupit. Kaso, Disaster struck. Ayaw gumana ng razor kay Char. Syet.

I had no choice. Tinuyo ko na lang si Char at kinausap.

"Baby, okay lang yan. Summer naman ngayon. At least, presko diba?"

Panay ang iyak ni Char. Ayaw akong tignan. Alam nya ata na the height ng kapangitan ang ginawa ko sa kanya. Lalo pang na-emphasize na palpak ang ginawa ko nung dumating si TSA.

"Anong ginawa mo kay Char? Mukhang cancer patient!", gulat na sabi ni TSA.

Lalong nag-iiyak si Char. Ayaw na akong tignan. Na-feel ko, galit sya.

I am really sorry Char. Hindi sinasadya ni Mommy. Promise, sa professional dog groomer na kita dadalhin next time.

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Happy Birthday Papa!

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My baby-faced Dad celebrated his birthday on May 4, 2011. He is 58. TSA and I will be visiting him on Saturday for his belated burthday celebration. Happy Birthday Papa. Thank you.

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A Love Story

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What would you do if you met the woman of your dreams and wanted to make her your wife after you've married someone else? Ian Montes (Aga Muhlach) was the embodiement of success and despite being the son of a shipping tycoon, Ian refused to just ride the success of his father's empire. Instead, he built his own real estate company, where he earned his first million at a very young age and has never looked back since. Driven by the ambition to become as good, if not better than his father, Ian managed claw his way to the top and make it on his own. But behind the glorious facade was a broken man yearning for love and recognition, still scarred from when his mother abandoned them at the impressionable age of 17, compounded by his desire for his father's approval, Ian longed for someone who can and will love him unconditionally. Lightning struck twice when he met the two women who would change his life forever - Joanna Villanueva (Maricel Soriano) and Karyn Torres (Angelica Panganiban).

Joanna was the picture of quiet confidence and eminence. Although heartbroken herself from a failed marriage to an errant ex-husband, Joanna found love again when she rescued Ian from a water-skiing accident in La Union. Being a doctor by trade, she nurtured Ian and showered him with the love and attention he craved. With Joanna, Ian found the home he sorely missed in his youth and a life of bliss he never thought possible. But then came Karyn Torres, a vivacious flight attendant he met on a business trip to Macau. At twenty-four, she was the epitome of youthful sensuality and worldliness- with her, every moment Ian spent was filled with excitement and spontaneity, along with the realization that this was the life he's always wanted. So now, Ian is left with a choice... although through as painful as it maybe, Ian, Joanna and Karyn must learn the true meaning of unconditional love and forgiveness.

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